The Final Read Through

And now to the next step. The final read through before sending it to the publisher for publication. Once I hit send, there’s no going back.

“Dear God, please let everything be okay…”

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Labyrinth Goblins

No such luck. I found errors I swear hadn’t been there before. Missing words, stuff switched around in a sentence, sections that made me question WTH was I thinking.

At this point, Goblins are dancing around my head. Pointing and prodding at my every insecurity, their shrieks and maniacal laughter taunting me at every turn.

It’s devastating because I had my book professional edited, multiple times. But, like my publisher said everyone is human and mistakes happen. How many times have you read a book from a well-known author and caught an error? Things can get past even the most discerning eye.

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Meditation Pose

Breathe, Monica, breathe. Wuuu Saaaa.

Thankfully, I’m able to list everything I found and send it to the person who formatted my book. She can submit the corrections and everything will be right in the universe once again.

I keep trying to remind myself to stay positive and focused. Don’t let my fears overwhelm my world.

Honestly, though at times like this it’s easier said than done.

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Be Brave

It’s only baring my soul, what’s the big deal?

For months, I’ve been hearing about the importance of joining a critique group. You’re not serious about your writing if you aren’t in a critique group. Sounds harsh, huh? Well, it is and it isn’t.

Yes, you should join a critique group, for the support, information, and the kick in the butt. It’s hard to take the first step and let someone else read your precious WIP. I’ve been avoiding it for awhile, kind of like making an appointment for a necessary check-up but don’t want to go to.

Critique-Group-300x300But I sucked it up and went to my first critique group meeting this past Sunday. My tummy was in knots and nerves made my voice quiver a little bit. When I first walked in, I glanced at the door wondering how silly I would look if I made a dash for it and ran out screaming. To make matters worse, I was late for the meeting. (Yes, I have my train wreck moments. Ugh I hate being late, it’s horribly rude.)

So much angst for nothing…sort of. After all, it isn’t easy baring your soul for others to critique with a (gasp) red pen. Fortunately for me, this group of writers are very kind, respectful, and talented. (score). They gave me some great tips and editing advice. They also asked questions about my character and plot that made me think about where I was going with my story.

All in all, I’m glad I finally took the leap to challenge myself and join a critique group. The suggestions and questions they offered were positive. I can already see how helpful joining a critique group will be to my novel. (Oi, apparently, I have some challenges with grammar I need to work on. Blasted commas and tenses, they get me all the time.)

Ernest Hemingway said, “There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.”

He wasn’t wrong about the bleeding.

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Published, I will be?

It’s a new week and I hope everyone is just as pumped for summer as I am. Things have been moving along pretty steadily. I heard back from the editor of The Inkslinger (newsletter for www.hdcwc.org ) and she accepted my work! I’m pretty jazzed about it. She said she loved (yup, she really said loved and I am going to carry those words around in my heart for years to come) my poetry and will spread my work out over a few months. I can keep submitting my stuff to her and she will review it for approval.

AHHHHH I’m so excited! It’s really happening. This is my first legitimate step towards my dream. During a phone call with my friend Branli (www.branlicaidryn.com) he says “You know what this means right? You can officially add ‘Published Author’ to your resume.” My knees buckled a little bit and my eyes got a bit teary. “No, that’s not…No, I’m not!”

“Yup, Honey it’s available to the public on their website. You’re going to be published. Let that sink in.”

“No…Oh my God!” Branli just laughed at me. Who knows how long I would have gone without realizing what I did? Lol, I’m such a DA sometimes but it’s okay.  I’m not embarrassed or ashamed. I totally embrace it.

In fact, the very next day I saw the editor at the meeting with High Desert Blogging (www.highdesertblogging.com).   I asked her if it was true. Rusty said yes, the newsletter is a regional publication because it is distributed to all of the California Writers Club in the state plus it’s available on the internet.  (Sweet!)

I had no problem looking like a dork and asking Rusty. Well let’s be honest the truth is Branli is my friend and he loves me. I needed confirmation from a stranger who doesn’t care about my feelings or will sugarcoat stuff. So with that confirmation (pat on the back) I ordered some business cards. I was starting to feel kind of silly going to these meetings and being the only one without anything to hand out. Everyone has postcards, bookmarks, business cards, dancing bears, etc. “Do you have a card?” “Oh no, I’m sorry I’m just starting out [LOSER].”

Can you tell I’m feeling kind of giddy and have a goofy grin? Yea, I’m not going to lie I’m flippen terrified of the whole thing and I want to cry when I think too much about it. So I do what I do best, ignore the big elephant in the room and just keep moving forward. Fake it till you make it and pretend I know what the heck I’m doing. Because for what I don’t know there’s always Google.

Links:

www.branlicaidryn.com

www.highdesertblogging.com